Okay, fuck you Justin. I can’t believe I thought you were so nice *sigh* Ah well … I’m tired of explaining this again, so I’m just gonna say I’m back with Brad. Yeah, I’m sure all of you are freaking out and wondering why, but don’t worry, we talked everything out, and hopefully this time around things will work better.

P.S. In case you’re wondering, it’s a new year, so I figured I might as well start a new blog ’cause the other one was starting to annoy me. I can’t believe I finally got this fuckin’ thing to work, though, haha, so yay me Ta ta for now.

Okay, WTF is up with Justin calling my friend Ashley (when he never calls me — I call him) and leaving her a message? I don’t think she has a cell phone … and she lives in the same dorm as me! Um … why? Doesn’t he like me? Yeah, I know he’s trying to find her a guy at UMD, but what I don’t get is why he willingly calls her … he told me he can’t call me ’cause it’s long distance and the phones there won’t do that. Well then WTF is up with calling Ashley who is in the same place I am? *sigh* And I see him in like 48 hours, too. When I asked him about it earlier he was like “would you like me to not talk to her?” Of course I said no ’cause that’s stupid — all I wanna know is why. Does he like her or something? Grr … he’s on now, but I don’t wanna ask him ’cause I’m probably over-analyzing the whole stupid thing. Like I always do.

And why isn’t Brad on? Before my stupid laptop decided to kick me off everything was okay. But then when I got off, he got off. And he had just told me how he wanted a kiss from anyone (dunno if I’m included) for his 19th birthday, which is today. Wonder if I should send him an online card or something? And Alex’s is in 6 days. Might send him something, too.

Speaking of Alex, where is he? He’s usually online 24/7, but he hasn’t been on in like a week. And I dunno where he is. Grr, it’s weird, ’cause I wanna talk to him and see what advice he can give me about Justin. ‘Cause he’s good with that kinda stuff. Yeah *shivers* I’m cold. Justin is doing shit to entertain me. I’m so bored. Like half the net doesn’t work. No one interesting is on. I’m alone in the computer lab. Where the fuck is everybody? Usually it’s crowded in here!

OMG, Justin just asked for my email to send me something. Hello, I’ve sent him like 20 billion forwards — how can he not know my address? *sigh* Oh well … maybe he’s not the prince charming I thought he would be. Maybe this is just a rebound thing, and I’m too blind or whatever to see it. And Brad is being all sweet about me and Justin — he’s not jealous or whatever, and he didn’t get mad when I told him about him. Why did we have to break up? Maybe that was my mistake. Not trying hard enough to keep us together. But oh well.

Yay, Mrs. Gamboa is here to hopefully fix my laptop, so I’m gonna go now, but talk to everyone later.

Yum. Just finished a pack of Arthur chewy fruit snacks. LOL. I’m addicted to those things. Anyway, today was a good day for getting my mind off Brad, lol. Seeing as how I’m already sliding into depression even though we haven’t officially broken up yet *sigh* I still can’t believe it … I am so not looking forward to another long time of singleness — hopefully Alex or that other guy from MatchMaker will find some kinda romantic spark in me, lol. But oh well.

Onto the good stuff. The Toyota now has a new CD player and radio! Plus new blue fire seat covers! Yay! I was so happy when Dad let me get the seat covers, ’cause they match the steering wheel cover and dice … so yeah. Can’t wait to put them in tomorrow. Then he got me a new bluish/purplish phone for my room since the other one broke. It’s cool ’cause now I have a cordless and can program my own speed dial numbers, haha. Can’t wait ’til it’s finished charging (is 16 hours too long of an initial charge time? I think so!) … and then (no “and then”!), I got a fire folder, pencil case, and shoelaces (yes, I know, very random) at Hot Topic. Dunno what I’m gonna use the shoelaces for (folder and pencil case = school) … just thought they looked cool. And hey, they were only $2.50.

Dammit, Alex needs to get on. He said he got back from New York tonight. Even though I don’t know when, I gotta talk to him about hopefully seeing him tomorrow. ‘Cause I’m going to New York (a different part, lol) on Sunday … and then like 2 days after I get back I get to go to school for like forever, lol … so I wanna see him again before hell starts *sigh* I still wonder what he thinks of me … whether he likes me as a friend or as more than that … oh well *shrugs* Ooh, happy thought: wonder if he’ll wanna call me at school? LOL, I dunno, whatever he wants to do is cool with me.

I think I’ve run out of things to say now, but since I got nothing else to do online, I figure I’ll blab until I either get too tired to type or until Alex gets on. Haha.

Okay, ’cause I’m bored, I’m gonna write out what I’m gonna wear tomorrow and crap like that *insert usual morning shower first* Shirt = new Gap shirt I got yesterday: black and sleeveless with this red and white Ed’s Diner/vintage-looking stuff on it, and my flare Gap pants. Damn, I’m going “Gap-py”, aren’t I? LOL. For shoes I’m probably gonna wear my sneakers in case I drive there (and they’ll go with the shirt anyway). Accessories = new fire necklace I got last night at Tysons, watch, and hair band … maybe silver ring if it looks right. Then I just gotta toss my fire wallet into the van (yes, if you haven’t noticed yet, I’m obsessed with fire stuff), grab the keys, and go. That’s assuming I get the van. Hopefully Dad will believe another one of my spending-the-day-with-Shaune stories and not find out that I went all the way to Maryland. And that’s assuming Shaune still wants to go and can go and won’t leave me stranded again. Oh well, at least I know the way this time. And if Shaune has to pick me up from here, that’s fine, too. As long as it’s cool with her (and Alex) that we spend the day at his (amazing) place, I’m happy. And it’ll take some of the Brad-sadness off me (hopefully).

Oh well … what to write … Alex still isn’t on, haha. I’m beginning to think that he won’t get on at all tonight. Hmm … maybe he got a late flight or whatever and is dead tired or something. And obviously already went to bed. Although it’s only 12:41 am now. I’ll stay on like another half hour and if he doesn’t show up then I’m going to sleep. And hey, if he doesn’t show up tomorrow either, I can still call Shaune and we can do something else … like go to the pool or show off our new fire stuff to each other or something. Haha, that’d be funny … showing off our fire stuff. Makes you wonder what else people do when they’re bored. LOL.

Ah, yay! Alex just got on! *dances around the room* Haha, sorry, mini-teeny attack there Grr … one question: why is it that guys never message you first? Why’s it always gotta be that you’re the first to message them? Does anyone else find that annoying? Well gonna go now and talk to Alex, so TTYL!

Okay, cross out me going to Alex’s. He can’t. And insert the whole above rambling into Tuesday or Wednesday when I probably will see him. And insert me trying out my new phone, fire stuff, and car tomorrow … and hopefully seeing Shaune if she has time. Yeah, I’m kinda bummed about not being able to see him … but yay, he said *hugs* at the end of our convo. Hehe. Things are well in the world of Claire.

Man, today was so cool! I told my dad that I was going to Shaune’s for the day, when really I was driving about 40 minutes to Potomac, MD to this guy Alex’s house that I’d never met before (we started talking after he found me on MatchMaker a few days ago) — plus, I took the Beltway and stuff to his house, which Dad would never let me do otherwise (one reason I didn’t tell him where I was really going) … and everything went fine, so I don’t see what the big deal is. I love driving long distances (for some insane reason)!

Then when I get to Alex’s … his house is huge! And I mean, huge! It was so cool, like it’s out in the country where all the rich people live, lol, and he has like 3 floors, 5 sets of stairs, an inside jacuzzi, the coolest room, a dog and a cat, a cool backyard (even though I didn’t see it, it’s gotta be awesome, lol), and a ton of other stuff. A huge stereo system in the living room, too … and some kinda black convertible Jaguar thing in the garage … even though it’s his dad’s. I was just like, omg woah, dude, you have a nice house!

Basically all we did (after me parking, staring in disbelief at the coolness of the house, the usual awkward introduction, and seeing his room, which was also very cool, and other little random stuff) was go out to lunch at Sbarro and play TimeSplitters, which was interesting. He kept killing me. I think he likes me. He’s really sweet and shy, although the only thing I don’t really like about him is that he does pot … but I think he’s only a social “druggie” (if that’s even the right term … ) — ’cause he didn’t do anything while I was there. Hehe, it was so cute, like he kept looking over at me and giving me these little smiles … but don’t worry, I’m not gonna like cheat on Brad or anything. I don’t like him 100% in that way yet … it’s more like around 50%. But hey, if anything ever goes wrong with Brad and I, you know who I’ll be looking at. Haha. Damn, I know that’s a bad thing to say … but I can’t help it. Oh well, I guess I’m just like this ’cause everything went cool and Dad didn’t catch me and he likes me and we’re friends now and stuff. Hehe. Well, I’m gonna work on my personal site some more now, so TTYL! *hugs* (what Alex said to me last night before we went to bed at like 2:30 am )

Another plus about Alex is that he doesn’t care that I like Hanson! Unlike Brad, who completely freaked out when he saw my room and would rather me put up other stuff on my walls, Alex thinks it’s cool and actually wants me to bring my Hanson CDs to his house so that he can hear what their new stuff sounds like. How awesome is that? I was like, yay! *score*

Okay, ’cause I’m bored, I’m gonna list what he looked like and was wearing. I know, I’m a freak. Anyway, first of all, he has shoulder-length blond hair, hazel eyes (like me!), and a goatee-type thing. He had on these dark green cargo pants, brown leather sandals, a black shirt, and brown jacket. Kinda nature-y, you could say. He also had this gold necklace, but I dunno what the symbol was for. Oh, and also on only one hand and foot, he had chipped dark blue nail polish. I was like, hmm, okay, if that’s your thing, go for it! Hehe … his hair was also in a ponytail.

Well, Dad’s bugging me to go to bed now, so bye! Updates about Pennsylvania and stuff next week to come.