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Antarctica pages, blog privacy.

January 16, 2002 | 11:00 pm

Well, I finally added a little commenting thingy to this blog, so make good use of it people :razz:

Today was okay, as usual. Finally fixed the Antarctica picture pages to make them all look the same … I wish Mr. Northrup would be more consistent layout-wise and a little more editor-conscious (I found a link to a local file that spans the whole site, so yeah). Dunno what he’s gonna do about that. Haven’t told him yet, but I figure I will tomorrow when I remember.

OMG. Justin read my old blog (which was basically all about him) *dies* So has Neil, and I’m guessing Brad too, ’cause he said he has one of them bookmarked at home. WTF? How … ? I can’t believe it, I feel so weird, like my privacy is gone, out the window … the people I write about in my blogs are the ones who read it. Ugh … man, that stuff was personal. How in the hell do these links get out? I never told them to anybody … *sigh* But thank god it was my old blog … I don’t know what I’d do if they read this one … and who the hell does Justin think he is, labeling me “psycho” ’cause I write what I really feel in my blogs? Whatever, it just goes to prove what a bitch he is. That’s the whole point of journals, dumbass. Hehe, felt good to say that :grin:

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Back and forth.

January 3, 2002 | 10:40 pm

Okay, fuck you Justin. I can’t believe I thought you were so nice *sigh* Ah well … I’m tired of explaining this again, so I’m just gonna say I’m back with Brad. Yeah, I’m sure all of you are freaking out and wondering why, but don’t worry, we talked everything out, and hopefully this time around things will work better.

P.S. In case you’re wondering, it’s a new year, so I figured I might as well start a new blog ’cause the other one was starting to annoy me. I can’t believe I finally got this fuckin’ thing to work, though, haha, so yay me :razz: Ta ta for now.

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A flicker or flame?

November 12, 2001 | 2:06 pm

Wow, I’m weird, I go from not writing in here for days to more than one entry per day. Hehe. Also, before I go on to rant about Justin, I gotta say that my new favorite band is Flickerstick. They rock! Anyway, back to ranting … is it just me, or does it mean something that Justin doesn’t call me babe/cutey anymore? ‘Cause he did when we went out before, but he hasn’t since that. Should I be worried? I mean, everything else is going perfectly, but I’ve just noticed this. I’m probably just over-analyzing again … but yeah … anyone have advice? Should I ask him about it? *sigh* I hate noticing little stuff! It always takes away from you really enjoying the bigger and better part of something.

Well, g2g get ready for chemistry now, so I’ll TTYL. See ya.

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Back with Justin!

November 12, 2001 | 9:17 am

Man, I can’t wait ’til Sunday. For one, it’s the start of Thanksgiving break, and two, I get to see Justin again! I’m so happy! We’re gonna rent American Beauty (well, I am at Blockbuster — and hopefully see Shaune there as well — and bring it on the metro) … so far that’s all we’re doing, save for hanging out and eating something. And hopefully his roommate will leave us alone for a little bit.

I still can’t get over how awesome Saturday went, though. He asked me out in this non-direct way … like “so are you cool with you and me?” I was like “yeah” :smile: I’m even wearing the sweater now that I wore when I was with him — am I crazy? I swear, I’ve never felt so perfect with a guy. I dunno why, but it was the greatest feeling to just sit there with him for hours in the back of the van, just talking and hugging and kissing and stuff, with no pressure to do anything more. He looked so cute in the dark, too — even when we got kicked out of the park by some weird cop/dog-walker guy. At the end he was like “hey, we only got kicked out of one place tonight!” LOL.

Also, we had originally planned to leave to go back to the metro at 9, but both of us didn’t wanna leave the back of the van, so we kept postponing it ’til 10 … and I knew if we could, we would’ve spent the whole night there and probably fallen asleep with each other (he said if he had kept his eyes closed longer that definitely would’ve happened) … aw, that would’ve rocked. Falling asleep with him. Can’t wait ’til my dad lets me stay the night at UMD (yeah right). Also, while we were in the van, he kept running his hand through my hair and stroking my face … I practically melted in happiness/cuteness, lol. I mean, Brad hardly ever did that … much less willingly spend 9 hours with me. Justin also gave me a backrub towards the end, which felt awesome. How did I get so lucky guy-wise? Well, g2g to morning meeting now (and then computer class!), but I’ll TTYL. Bye!

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Huh?

September 20, 2001 | 4:11 pm

Okay, WTF is up with Justin calling my friend Ashley (when he never calls me — I call him) and leaving her a message? I don’t think she has a cell phone … and she lives in the same dorm as me! Um … why? Doesn’t he like me? Yeah, I know he’s trying to find her a guy at UMD, but what I don’t get is why he willingly calls her … he told me he can’t call me ’cause it’s long distance and the phones there won’t do that. Well then WTF is up with calling Ashley who is in the same place I am? *sigh* And I see him in like 48 hours, too. When I asked him about it earlier he was like “would you like me to not talk to her?” Of course I said no ’cause that’s stupid — all I wanna know is why. Does he like her or something? Grr … he’s on now, but I don’t wanna ask him ’cause I’m probably over-analyzing the whole stupid thing. Like I always do.

And why isn’t Brad on? Before my stupid laptop decided to kick me off everything was okay. But then when I got off, he got off. And he had just told me how he wanted a kiss from anyone (dunno if I’m included) for his 19th birthday, which is today. Wonder if I should send him an online card or something? And Alex’s is in 6 days. Might send him something, too.

Speaking of Alex, where is he? He’s usually online 24/7, but he hasn’t been on in like a week. And I dunno where he is. Grr, it’s weird, ’cause I wanna talk to him and see what advice he can give me about Justin. ‘Cause he’s good with that kinda stuff. Yeah *shivers* I’m cold. Justin is doing shit to entertain me. I’m so bored. Like half the net doesn’t work. No one interesting is on. I’m alone in the computer lab. Where the fuck is everybody? Usually it’s crowded in here!

OMG, Justin just asked for my email to send me something. Hello, I’ve sent him like 20 billion forwards — how can he not know my address? *sigh* Oh well … maybe he’s not the prince charming I thought he would be. Maybe this is just a rebound thing, and I’m too blind or whatever to see it. And Brad is being all sweet about me and Justin — he’s not jealous or whatever, and he didn’t get mad when I told him about him. Why did we have to break up? Maybe that was my mistake. Not trying hard enough to keep us together. But oh well.

Yay, Mrs. Gamboa is here to hopefully fix my laptop, so I’m gonna go now, but talk to everyone later.

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In disbelief.

September 11, 2001 | 11:30 am

OMG. Guess what happened today. The Pentagon and World Trade Center towers were crashed into by 3 hijacked planes (one for each) today. Plus, a bomb went off on the helipad of the Pentagon. Can you say omg? I could not, and still can’t, believe it. I mean, just last week the towers were there when we visited Grandpa. Hell, this morning they were there! Now they’re just piles of rubble on the ground. They’re destroyed, demolished. Forever. And Dad thinks that they won’t be rebuilt — but probably a monument or something will be put in their place (and maybe today be named “Pentagon/World Trade Center Day” or something). But geez, those things were like a major landmark of NYC, if not the whole US. And as a result of everything, all the airports in the nation are shut down until further notice … so are various DC schools (even Madeira), everything in DC (including the capital and White House), and stuff in North (I think)/South Carolina and Maryland. Bush is like stuck somewhere in Florida (think he was about to do something with education). Oh wait, there were 4 planes (’cause Dad said 4 flights were unaccounted for or something). One for each tower, the Pentagon, and the remaining one crashed in Pittsburgh. No one knows where it was flying to (at least I don’t) … and then I heard something about a plane and Ohio, but I dunno if it has anything to do with the towers/Pentagon tragedy.

After eating lunch, I went to the library to watch the news about it, and I just kinda stood there for a few minutes, watching the Pentagon blaze and the towers smoke, listening to what the news people were saying and watching the little prompts on the bottom of the screen, saying what was closed. Then I went to the computer room to check email and chat with people about it … but what was weird and annoying was that I IMed Justin all like, omg, did you hear about what happened, I can’t believe it! And he was like, uh, yeah, it sucks. Basically, all he wrote was one word answers, and said he wasn’t even freaked out about it. WTF? Dude, we’re having a national emergency, and you’re all cool and collected? People here are crying their eyes out, even those of us who don’t have family in the dead buildings! I mean, aren’t you even a little scared? I got pissed at him for that, and was like hey, I’m gonna go call my dad now, TTYL. “Bye” was all he said. I swear, he like hates me now for some reason I don’t know. Oh well, screw him, we’ll see what happens next time we meet.

Anyway, here’s how I first found out about it (sorry this is like not in order, lol): after graphic design it was food break, so after getting my chocolate muffin I went back to the dorm to change books, yada yada yada. Erica’s there, and she’s like, dude, there was an explosion in the Pentagon or something. I was like, huh? DC101 is playing so I change my books and stuff while listening to that. They go on to say stuff about the towers and crashes. I’m still in disbelief, and so is Erica. She’s like, this is kinda scary! I go, yeah, almost like Pearl Harbor — they snuck up on us. So then we go to the judicial meeting. But, instead of it being a judicial meeting, it turns into a meeting of Mrs. Leip taking the podium, informing us of the tragedy (by this time I’m stunned and about to cry, not really knowing why, and trembling) … she tells us about the planes crashing, how the Pentagon thing happened just 20 minutes earlier, that no one knows who did it yet, what airlines were involved, the capital and White House were evacuated, etc. Elizabeth starts bawling ’cause her Dad works in the towers (I found out later he’s okay), and so is Melissa (dunno about her). Nora is also supposedly screwed ’cause she’s a princess (still don’t know how or why that came about) and whose dad is a big government guy … all I heard was that she left earlier today. But yeah, during the whole meeting I’m just sitting there trembling in shock, not believing my ears, listening to the muffled sobs of various girls, and worrying and wondering if Dad, Grandpa, and Justin are alright and how they’re taking it. We all know Justin was a bitch and didn’t even care how I felt. Yeah, he asked if I was freaked, but that was the end of that. WTF, I’m like, hello? The girl you wanna kiss next time you see her feels like crying, and you don’t even attempt to comfort her or anything? What is wrong with you? I would do the same for you, except you weren’t “affected” for some reason *sigh* Oh well. Enough bitching about him.

Anyway, after chatting and checking email, I go back to the dorm to try and call Dad. He doesn’t answer his cell phone (’cause he was talking to Grandma on the cordless, I later learn), and his 202 number for work didn’t even ring. I’m like damn, DC must really be clogging the phone lines, lol. Though when I talk to him later, he says he never even went to work ’cause he saw what had happened on TV. Good thing, too, ’cause traffic there is hell. Metro was shut down initially, but now is running to relieve some of the pressure on the roads. Although it bypasses National Airport and the Pentagon stops. They also opened up a few bridges to help with traffic … I dunno how traffic is now, but definitely it’s not as bad as it was earlier. I think like all of DC was eventually evacuated (all the monuments and museums were shut down, too), so stuff isn’t as bad car-wise as it was earlier. Even MetroBus, which they said was slow ’cause of all the volume.

Well, I’m gonna go take a shower now — I’m pretty sure I explained all the tragedy-related events today … so, until more news about it (or another big event) happens, I’m out! Oh yeah, when I was talking to Mrs. Thorndike about this, she said that when we find out what country did this, we might go to war with them. War. How scary is that … I mean, I’ve been living in a US-involved-war-free world since WWII. That would so suck, but that country would deserve it! Just look at what happened: they made the US — the most powerful nation in the world — incredibly tense and vulnerable. Not to mention destroyed three of its most prized possessions. I guess all we can do now is pray that this isn’t the start of some string of terrorist events. Damn.

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